1. What are the first things that you do in the morning to start your day? Wander the shopping mall looking for some item that I can't find. Slowly wake up and realize I'm dreaming. Hit the snooze on the alarm, go back to dreaming about shopping malls. Hit the snooze again. Hit the snooze again. Hit the snooze again. Think about boyfriend and smile. Hit the snooze again. More smiling. Hit the snooze again. Actually look at the clock and swear. Turn off alarms, get out of bed, look out window to see if it's snowed. Exit bedroom and trip over cat. Turn on the shower because it takes forever to heat up. Turn on all the lights in the house. Check email and boards. Trip over box of catfood while trying to feed cat. Trip over random mess on floor. Take extremely long shower that I don't have time for. Get dressed. Trip over cat while making way to front door. Suddenly remember something I want to bring to work with me and spend fifteen minutes looking for it. Look at clock and swear. Trip over cat who is demanding attention. Sit down with cat in lap and pet her for five minutes. Get up and put on coat and open front door. Suddenly remember something else I wanted and spend five minutes looking for it. Turn off the lights in the house, and open a blind for the cat. Trip over cat. Finally leave. Get in car, look at clock, and swear.
Oh well.
2. What are the last things that you do at night before going to bed? Turn off lights in house except for lamps in library. Sit down at computer and check email. Get headbumped by cat. Turn around and scritch cat. Check boards. Throw cat back on floor as she's just jumped on the keyboard. IM friends. Pet cat who is now on the desk hanging over keyboard. Attempt to type, make lots of errors. Stay up way too late talking to folks on AIM. Finally manage to sign off after much yawning and many typos. Brush teeth and take one last pee break before bed. Turn off light in hallway, slip into bedroom without letting cat in. Redo the covers on the bed. Change clothes. Turn off light, get in bed, turn on soothing sounds, say prayers, turn on side, lay awake for 20 minutes, turn on other side, lay awake for 20 minutes, turn over again, fall asleep.
3. What daily routine have you recently added to your day? Talking to Roger at some point during the day. *smile*
4. What routine do you wish you get rid of? The flee reaction. Want very much to become a fighter, not a flee-er. Lately I've been trying to imagine myself as a dwarf with a shield and a battle-axe, standing on a tomb bravely facing a horde of orcs. Can't quite picture it, though. I think it's the beard -- just makes me look silly, really.
5. What's the one thing that makes you feel like something is missing if you don't do it some point within your day? The gaining of self-knowledge. I'm an INFP; it's what I do. Sometimes it comes in the form of a good journal entry; sometimes it comes from a conversation with a friend. However it comes, if I don't learn something about myself--if I don't have some sort of revelation during the day--then I feel lost and incomplete, and will stay up way too late playing Spider Solitaire hoping the answer will appear if I could just find that Eight of Spades I need, but it never happens (the spade or the knowledge) and I go to bed feeling all out of sorts and worried.
Completely and utterly miserable today. The depression has flared up big-time and I am hurting badly. There's some good in it, though -- it finally motivated me to make an appointment to see the doctor so I can get everything checked out. Yay me.
Stumbled across this Bible passage a few weeks ago and feel the need to post it here:
No trial has come to you but what is human. God is faithful and will not let you be tried beyond your strength; but with the trial he will also provide a way out, so that you may be able to bear it.
1 Cor 10:13
Even though I'm Catholic I've never really been much of a Bible reader. Perhaps I should start reading it. Maybe there's more gems like this one in there that can help me make it through the dark times.
...another dollar stolen from the company due to my extreme lack of activity caused by the ganging up of the Earls.
Actually, I did get a bit productive towards the end of the day. Sent some emails updating folks on the status of a nasty issue. Made some calls about other issues. Almost felt like I was a real member of the working world for about an hour today. Woo.
Also finally made an appointment to get my haircut. Go me! Unfortunately hairdresser couldn't take me until next week, and on a Thursday at that, so I will miss gaming. Waah. I think it's worth it though, because I have a kick-ass hairdresser. Lisa rules.
Off to maybe shop for a new car or perhaps do one or two other important things.
Well, I had a long blog entry planned but I'm afraid to post it since my last long post got deleted when I upgraded to Blogger Pro.
It's another crappy day. That's two in a row. I have a streak going, woohoo. The Earls have me surrounded and are refusing to let me move, and I seem to have lost the ability to communicate with my friends. I'm terribly frustrated right now. And sad. And angry. And wanting to cry. And wanting to hit something. Or play that boxing game again so I can hyperventilate and laugh myself silly. That would do the trick. For a little while, at least.
Maybe I will post that long blog entry, but I'll do it in parts. For some reason I'm suddenly reminded of partial differentiation and now I'm totally wishing to be sitting in a math class again. Have I told you yet how much I miss math?
*sob* I feel very low right now. And the chocolate is calling to me. Bad chocolate.
I decided to throw money in blogger's direction because I like it so much.
First thing it did after I upgraded to Blogger Pro was delete my last post. GAH! Apparently it's too big or something.
Luckily I save all my posts as Notepad documents on my computer, so I was able to retrieve it and repost it. Except it isn't posting correctly -- it's cutting off the last few lines. Dammit.
If I can't get this straightened out, I may have to cancel my subscription. I really don't want to, though, because I do think blogger is very cool and deserving of my money. Will keep fiddling with it and see if I can get it fixed.
