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Wrong Again

Bad song fic...

Title: Wrong Again
Author: Kat
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: I don't own
Spoilers: Up to The Getaway


Sydney sat in the restaurant, waiting for Francie to join her. She really hated keeping everything from her. Even Will was aware of most of the things that were going on. She sighed as she thought about their last conversation.

She had admitted that she had a crush on a guy from work. She wanted to laugh. It was more than a crush and she knew it. She just didn't want to admit to herself that she felt more for Vaughn than she realized.

From the day we met
You made me forget
All my fears

Vaughn had been there for her every time she needed him. She had called him at all hours of the day and he had never questioned her. He had just shown up. She could remember when he had found her at the pier the night her father had missed their dinner.

Just knowing he was there, listening to her had helped. He had offered silent support and she had reached out, needing physical contact and reassurance. That had been the first time she had realized that he was her guardian angel.

He had watched over her during missions. She loved when he was able to be on comms for her. It calmed her, helped her to focus on those missions.

You knew just what to say
And you kissed away
All my tears

They had come so far in these past few years. He was the person she ran to when the world seemed to be falling down around her. He had been the one she had run to when she found out about her father's lies. He had met with her mother to spare her the pain.

She sighed, wishing that Francie was done handling customers. She needed a friend right now. Will was off with working at his new job and it didn't look like Francie would be finishing any time soon. She didn't want to start crying in front of the customers. That would make her even more pathetic.

I knew this time I had finally found
Someone to build my life around
Be a lover and a friend

Vaughn had been a constant source of confusion for her. At first she had labelled him a pompous ass but she soon found out that he was just what she needed. He supported her and helped her even when she didn't want help.

He never blamed her for what her mother had done. He had been able to make her see that she was not responsible for her mother's actions.

He had comforted her when she found out the truth about his father's death. She had wanted to stay away and keep from hurting him, but he had refused to let her walk away. He had forced her to focus on what mattered.

After all my heart had put me through
I knew that it was safe with you
What we had would never end

Sydney placed her head in her hands. After Danny, she had been so heartbroken. She had thought her world was ending. She had never wanted to set foot in Credit Dauphine again. And then she had finally been able to move on. She had developed a steady relationsip with Vaughn. They had grown closer.

But then she had hurt him with Noah. Noah's return had distracted her. She had used him so that she wouldn't have to face her growing feelings for Vaughn. When she had killed him, she had been shattered and Vaughn had been distant.

She hated that everything in her life was a lie. The only person that she could ever confide in was Vaughn. And after what had happened with Alice, they were more distant than ever.

Wrong Again.

When Vaughn had been in the hospital, the last person she had ever expected to see was Alice. She didn't even know her, but already she hated her. Alice had been able to see Vaughn without having to come up with a cover, without having to worry about security section.

She had wanted to just smack her pretty face. She knew it wasn't fair. Alice had no clue about the way she felt. But she couldn't help but be jealous of the woman that Vaughn went home to.

Everybody swore
They'd seen this before

She barely noticed as she blinked back tears. She was so lost in her thoughts, trying to figure out her crazy life. She wanted one little break in life. A chance to be herself. The only problem was that she didn't know who Sydney Bristow was anymore.

She remembered when Charlie has broken Francie's heart. She had wanted to kick him for what he had done to her best friend. And yet Francie had survived. She had been able to move on after Charlie. She was barely able to face Vaughn each day.

She knew that Will was being overly protective of her lately after he had witnessed her reaction to Vaughn and Alice coming to Francie's restaurant.

He had done his best to comfort her, but she didn't want to hear it. She was too busy trying to ignore the flash of pain at seeing Alice and Vaughn acting like a happy couple in love. Once they had left the restaurant, Will had questioned her about her reaction, but she had refused to talk to him.

He wasn't dumb. He knew why she had reacted the way she had. She had a feeling he had known about her feelings for Vaughn for some time now.

We'd be fine
And you'd come to see
That you still love me
In good time

She had wanted to believe that it was all a nightmare. That Alice didn't exist and that she could tell Vaughn how she felt. She knew it was a lot to ask for, but she just wanted one normal thing in her life.

She looked around the restaurant, spotting couples and families. Her eyes welled up, just the thought of something she would probably never get to experience scared her. With her line of work, relationships were impossible.

And they said there's nothing you can do
It's something that he's going through
It happens to a lot of men

She wanted to be able to take back ever meeting Vaughn, but she would never regret that. For so long he had been the truest thing in her life. She just didn't want that to end. She had told herself time and time again that allowing herself to get close to Vaughn would do her no good. But her heart didn't want to listen to her head.

Her heart told her to memorize everything about Vaughn and never let him go. She wanted to listen, but there were too many complications. If she had a choice she would choose him. But her mind reminded her that it could never happen.

And I told myself that they were right
That you'd wake up and see the light
And I just had to wait till then
Wrong again...

Things had finally seemed to be go her way for one day. That should have been her first clue. The dinner in Nice had been romantic; she had lost her head. She hadn't thought twice about accepting Vaughn's invitation. And of course it had been interrupted by Ariana Kane's men.

She had found out more about Vaughn's life in that night than she had in the past two years. It had felt so right to learn the little quirks about him. It had made her feel like a school girl. The wine had made her blush as it went to her head.

When the owner had given them a key to the room, her heart had stopped and she had given Vaughn a hesitant glance. A part of her had lept with joy at the open invitation to what the key would mean. The sensible side of her had argued, knowing that it was a mistake to get caught up in the atmosphere.

And it seemed to me the pain would last
My chance for happiness had passed

When she had been caught with Vaughn, she knew that it had been a mistake to accept his invitation. The lives they led made it impossible. It was too dangerous to admit her feelings to anyone, much less her handler. She didn't want Vaughn to end up like Danny.

She didn't think she would be able to handle losing someone else to SD-6. She would do everything in her power to stop that, even if it meant denying everything she felt.

She sat in silence, lost in her thoughts, barely noticing that someone was approaching her table until they sat down across from her. She glanced up, expecting to see Francie. Sitting across from her was the last person she expected to see.

Vaughn reached out his hand and Sydney stilled, not knowing what to do. His thumb brushed the tears from her face as he gave her a concerned look. "Syd? What's wrong?"

She looked away, not sure how to answer. His hand reached out and made her face him. The tears welled in her eyes as she struggled to hold them at bay. She stared into his eyes, trying to show him what she wasn't able to say.

Nothing waited 'round the bend
I was sure I'd never find someone
To heal the damage you had done
My poor heart would never mend

Vaughn moved to her side of the booth and gathered her in his arms, trying to comfort her. She clutched at his shirt, not really understanding how or why he was there, but feeling safe either way.

"Syd, I don't know why you're crying, but you can trust me."

She sniffled and buried her head against his chest, not wanting to face her feelings. She didn't want to end up hurt again. She wouldn't survive it. She felt Vaughn pull her closer and she closed her eyes. It felt so right. She looked up into Vaughn's eyes and knew. This wasn't wrong, it could never be.

Wrong again
Wrong again

Written so that Jude wouldn't be able to kill Sydney in one of her fics, lol.  The little blackmailer, :-P

Characters and show belong to JJ; song belongs to Martina McBride