The Reincarnation of Esther Waterhouse
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My name is Sandra Sparks. I am going to tell you a story some will believe, and most will not. Whether you believe or not is up to you. I am just glad to have been through the experiences I am about to relate here.
 
What I will present to you is not proof of reincarnation. Memory is an intangible thing, and memories fail us or fool us even when we are in the midst of the events we are remembering. I can show you why I believe as I do - no more. Why do some people remember past or other lives, and some don't? How much is real and what is not? There are no easy answers.
 
All I can show you is one search. The search has shown me amazing things about consciousness, and how people and events might link together not only within a single life, but within all time. You have to decide whether what I have been through helps you in your own search, and answers some of your own questions about personal existence, and how it flows outside of the lines of a single lifetime.
 
I had believed in reincarnation since I was a child, because I could see things: mostly like silent films of other places and other times through my eyes: flashes of familiar bits. Here and there a word, a comment, a dream, would tell more. That was all. I tried to put ideas of my past lives together, and failed. I needed help and determination to make it all come together. It took time to find the right combination of both. Not until March of 2003 did I have an experience that began to link everything. And that link was a single dream...

Reincarnation: A Brief Introduction

First of all: What is Reincarnation?
 
Many people believe they know, with many different theories, but no one really knows.
 
All we know for sure is that a good many people feel they have lived before. Of those many, a few have good reason to know who they were.
 
Very few have the sort of evidence that follows to verify who they had been - and this isn't much, not compared to remembering one's present life.
 
Adult recall is always suspect, even to those of us who remember. As long as you are dealing with the past life recall, there is a struggle between intuition and imagination, and the fear of knowing and the desire to know. It's never easy.
 
So why try?
 
All I can do is answer for myself: Something nagged at me, more than nagged at me, for most of my life. I kept being pulled backwards until Esther finally nudged her way back into my brain. Now that I understand what had been going on under the surface all this time, I finally feel like I am in this present lifetime, and I am moving forward.

Second: what do I think Reincarnation is?
 
What I have experienced and observed over my lifetime led me to what I personally believe about it:
 
There is a single universal conscious energy that one can imagine (very simply) as a kind of energy tree. In order to grow, the consciousness expands, as all of our minds do, through experience. In order to experience as much as possible, the consciousness divides many many times, but all of the divisions, like branches and stems, stay connected to the trunk of the universal consciousness.
 
As our consciousness divides, we take off in different directions and for new experiences. But the connection to our former experiences, and to all experience through the trunk of our central energy, remains - we are just not conscious of more than a little of what is out there.
 
Because of this division, I believe in parallel incarnations. Though I recall being Esther, I may not be the only one who was a part of her. I truly feel I am not the only one who has come out of my earlier incarnations. The layers and possibilities of who we are and who we may have been might just possibly be endless. But as people we each experience the recall as a personal journey, ours and ours alone, so that we can concentrate on our single purpose of living our present lives.
 
So what is important about past life recall?
 
We recall who and what needs to be recalled, I think, in order to help us grow. We recall who we can most identify with, who has the most to contribute to the present condition of our lives. On top of that, when we do recall, we begin to understand the complexity of relationship, of purpose, and of eternity. We also begin to understand what I have called the metamorphoses of mercy: we continue to exist through all things, yet we always have a chance to begin again.

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