The Sundays 

and I'm standing on a platform
now I'm staring from a train
and all the trees roll back beside but I'm so oblivious
to the dark to the light
it's all the same

you gave me so much and now it's of the earth
and it makes me cry
(it makes me cry, it makes me cry)
it can make me cry

and you're standing here beside me
in a picture in a frame
and your voice could never fade it's so familiar
things you said in my head
every day

you gave me so much
and now it's of the earth
and it makes me cry
(it makes me cry, it makes me cry)
and it can make me cry

you're with me so much
though you're never with me anymore

and it makes me cry
(it makes me cry, it makes me cry)
it can make me cry
(oh it makes me cry, it makes me cry)
(yeah it makes me cry, it can make me cry)

 

I was hoping that our finals would be a summary of all our past quizzes, mid-terms and semi-finals. But no, almost all the questions were tricky and really took my time because you have to read each question over and over again just to sink in the idea.

 

 

Our batch started with 24 trainees but even before the week ends, 1 already resigned. A week after, 9 were terminated for not passing the accent training.

Then another week pass, 2 of our co-trainees resigned again because of  personal reasons. We have reached our fifth week in training but again 1 of our co-trainee resigned, which left us 11 hanging. We can do this! Be optimistic! Hehehe!

 

 

 

   

I hate myself for reading ****'s blog! Though i enjoy reading it but the thought of that girl makes me feel so bad about myself... in short, i am so insecure with her. very. i dunno, maybe because my boyfriend and this girl were "friends" without me knowing it, not until we had this "cool-off " thing. The thing is, some of my dormmates saw them watch movie together, hang out  and all that when we were having problems that time. They play online/network games with their "ragna" and "dota" friends and that made me feel so bad. Im not totally into online/network games and we don't really have the same interests unlike them. The reasons why I really feel so insecure evertime that girl comes into my mind. I really hate that feeling. After we head back to our relationship, things came back to normal but still, the thought of her makes me feel bad until now.

 

I know she's nice because there were times were we had instances of having the same set of friends, we play dota, went to concerts, sleep in the our friend's house but we don't talk. We nod at each other sometimes but that's just it. We stay in the same dorm, but we never got close, I don't want to. Im too afraid of knowing things about her and the type of friendship my bf and her had. Or maybe I just don't want to get more insecure when I start to know her better.

 

I am a very possessive person, really. I hate myself for being one, I am so jealous of everthing that may ruin my relationship with someone else. The insecurity is always there. No matter how hard i try to hide it or whatever pretentions I do, at the end it will still float up. Often times I make myself busy to hide all the emotions im feeling. It's a great diversion though. Hekhek!

 

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I miss watching grey's anatomy! ahuhu! The first season has already ended. Im excited to watch the second season. When will star world start showing it?! Hmf!

 

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Im sleepy... gotta go. 

 

weee... i have a new blog! im here at work, waiting my shift to end. It's only 4:44am... 1 hour and 16 minutes more to go and end of shift again! Next week will be the last week of our training. It's scary.. I hope we all pass the assessment and the qa on wednesday as well. On tuesday, we will start receiving calls in preparation for the qa on wednesday. Our trainer will be giving us our standing in the production training before our shift ends. I hope my grades are not that low. hehe! We already have 5 quizzes, a mid-term and semi-finals exam. We still have a quiz tonight and a final exam on monday. We are so bombarded with  information and our heads are aching. In a short span of time, I really learned a lot of things especially troubleshooting macintosh having a dial-up and broadband connection. Still, I have to review my notes in networking class last semester because we also support home networking.

 

We can do this! ;)