Evil exists side by side with good. That's what
drives people mad & what the boddhisattva is all about. I agree
with Jessica Amanda Salmonson* about that. Not only life & death,
spirit & matter, existence & non-existence, but also good &
evil are side by side & the other side of each other. That is
what is tormenting. It torments the heart because you can't undo
suffering. You can't even wish it didn't happen. It is inextricable
from good and from the struggle to live and grow and thrive. That
knowledge is what is tormenting. Maybe you can only have the knowledge
if you already know that you yourself are a speck of dust. Then the
issue is to love that speck of dust and breathe life into yourself.
Embrace your fate.
*Jessica Amanda Salmonson, author of "Ou Lu Khen and
the Beautiful Madwoman," which has this theme.