PHOENIX/ TOTEM  RECALL  (re-written 10.11.2005)
          




Pederast, paedophile -
you sick fuck! 
You suck!
or at least 
that's what you made me do -
and more.
much worse.
I was only four -
how much more innocent could I be?
And yet, like a vile snake,
you defiled me!

No, I take it back.
That image of the snake
is my totem now,
though not like yours;
no violent, hissing thing,
but the one, tail in mouth -
the orobourus, 
symbol of strength and rebirth,
now my defense, 
my familiar....

You took so much.
Your touch left me besmirched,
and lurching
into what's supposed to be a life.
Well, enough!
It's time to shed this grimy skin -
I'll reveal the one, 
untouched, within
and like the phoenix, I shall rise.
The only ashes left, 
are yours.

I am a slave, 
emancipated,
joyfully dancing on your grave.
I've escaped the crack and lash 
of your whip
and my sisters are joining me.
The ones, head-shaven, 
are growing their medusa-locks
and others you thought inside ripped,
not anymore -
we've slipped this yoke
with our phoenix-feathers flying,
death-defying.
You'll see....

We are setting ourselves free.