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near-death experience #1
I fell from a 4 story window onto the rocks below. The pain was brief, & suddenly I was floating above
my body surveying the scene. I saw my mother & friends, who were horrified, looking down at that very still & bleeding
body. As I heard cries of "Call 911!", I drifted upward.
I recall looking at that lifeless, beaten body & feeling a sense of compassion, but, at the same time,
I knew that body was not me in my essence, because I felt no pain, & I also felt amazingly whole & free. I had a sure
sense of self, although detached from my body. I was in spirit form.
My heart went out to my mom & friends, I wanted to shake them & say, "SEE, I"M OKAY!" But I could
not.
And then I was being snapped upward at lightning speed. I could sense the multitudes below on Earth. I felt
& saw many people doing their daily activities, struggling & suffering. I saw their joy & their excitement. I
witnessed mothers giving birth, people resting & dreaming, people at work, at play, swimming, painting, writing, camping,
going to college, going to meetings, etc. Each had a connection to God which was unique & all their own, yet many could
not consciously feel God, & I found myself praying for them.
I was in awe. And I asked God, "What is my part in all this? How can I help bring people to more wholeness
in your presence?" God told me that I was to go
back & live the life he had destined, which would be a blessing to many souls, he assured me.
And I thought, "But my body is so damaged, what kind of life would I have?!" Also, I felt that my physical body was a limitation even when well, given the
taste of spirit that I was experiencing. Anger shot through me, as well as fear, at the thought of going back to that wreck
of a body, but then I felt the presence of Jesus Christ - the love & strength that he filled me with overcame all my negativity
with soul bliss.
Jesus changed into what seemed to be Buddha & Krishna, then a Vast Goddess, then what looked like Pan.
I asked him why. A formless but speaking form of God/dess told me that every religion has something in it of him, & each
religious leader had some aspect of Him which it expressed. He told me Christianity was not the absolute Truth, but that all
religions have "some Truth" All gods come from him and are his children, he said, just as each human is. No one religion is
completely correct, he said, but most have some Truth. And I was filled with a sense of courage & purpose.
Then God showed me my life from birth to this point & I wept with the intense emotions I was feeling
as I relived everything in a flash. I was surprised that when God showed me all the areas I needed to yield to him in my earthly
life. He did not once chastise me for being gay, or tell me to repent. Instead, I saw that I needed to be more compassionate
towards myself & others, & more hopeful.
When I found myself back in my body, I was hurting in a hospital bed, but I knew I would heal & that
God would help me spread his Love & Knowledge. I was so thankful to be alive & here on Earth to tell my story &
give others hope.

I hope your spirit soared with this story.
This article contributed by Renee Rain.
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