///get real///

a project by nic pfost

recorded by nic pfost and nathan clinebelle

 

this is an earlier project of mine, all songs i wrote and recorded with a guitar and vocal.  the recording quality is somewhere between "bad" and "demo", but the songs are real and from my gut.  if you don't have a copy, you can get one from me.

 

 

 

{track one///little big time}

gist--this is all about centering, focusing, reorienting. no particular point or person in my life is referred to, but i deal with general, overarching issues, such as pride and salvation.

 

fav line--"i was shootin for the big time/oh the time i wasted/wasted on tryin'/tryin' to run my show

 

 

{track two///friendly funny guy}

gist--here's a song about two of my best friends from high school lumped into one character (jenni and jenna). only one of them is blue-eyed, but both of them helped me reveal the deeper side of nic that existed beneath the entertaining mask.

 

fav line--"a man must be strong/to admit that he's weak."

 

 

{track three///hypocrite}

gist--the biggest problem with christianity is christians. more specifically, 'christians' who don't live a life centered around loving God and loving others. these hypocrites do more damage than any well composed argument of any secularist out there.

the challenge in this song is to 'go all out.'

 

fav line--"you strain a gnat/and swallow a camel in the way you act"

 

 

{track four///mask parade}

gist--when i was a preteen, i passed one of my pastors in the hall at church. "how are you, nic?" he asked. "terrible." i said.

he kept walking.

sometimes people don't care to see the masks come off, but they're missing the best things in life, as i discover in this song.

 

fav line--"gotta put my pride up on the shelf/i'm not made to suffer by myself/i need someone who can see through my charade"

 

 

{track five///upside down inside out}

gist--sometimes i don't communicate very well, and my words that are meant to encourage and challenge someone are taken as legalism or thoughtlessness...and sometimes i let that happen.

a friend (lindsey) forced me to take a hard look at myself in this regard, and in turn i try to explain where i'm coming from.

 

fav line--"am i a blindman, or is this a bluff? cause i don't understand why you're treatin' me so rough..."

 

 

{track six///coffeecoffeecoffee}

gist--you know your drinking too much coffee when...

love coffee? this song's for you.

know someone that loves coffee? this song's for you, too.

 

fave line--"you chew on *other* people's fingernails..."

 

 

{track seven///sibling revelry}

gist--no, that is not a typo. the play on words is obvious, it's just that the word "revelry" is not in common use. to "revel" in something is to appreciate it, meditate on it, in a sense, love it. i love my friends (sisters and brothers), in a very real way, and this song is meant to portray that as vividly as possible. it exists because two of my friends (sharron and jenni) questioned my sincerity of "i love you", and i needed to respond.

 

fave line--"sometimes love has to die to prove its life"

 

 

{track eight///sometimes love}

gist--"love means never having to say 'i'm sorry'"

...yeah right.  sometimes love means *exactly* that.

a misunderstanding of a friend's behavior (jenna) led me to apologize by writing a song about it.

 

fav line--"i blew my misconstrued distortion/to an unhealthy proportion in my mind"

 

 

{track nine///waiting for eternity}

gist--i was leaving for college. two of my friends (jenna and laura) were leaving for canada and north carolina, respectively.

tears fell.

hugs ended.

this song came.

 

fav line--"they say absence makes us fonder/and a friend's a friend forever/yeah, but life doesn't really seem to fit very well/into cliche boxes"

 

 

{track ten///snuggle close}

gist--on staff with worldview academy.  i don't know what i'm doing there, i lost a $500 camera in my care, and one of my kids left camp. i'm depressed. but God gave me this song to help me realize He is the Daddy i can cuddle with when things get rough.

 

fav line--"Daddy, cuddle me close in Your warm strong arms/whisper assurance, and wrap me up tight..."