Nicholas Alan Tillemans Online
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"When you're done, you just cut its face off and make a mask out of it, because you can't think of anything else to do with it. I never had that problem with Suzy."

::..from "Acetone Enema"::..

 
 

+++ stories in print +++

Available in Chimeraworld #3 (Jan 2006). "Atheist, Misogynist, Terrorist."

Why "Misfortune Smiles Too"?

Blind Feeling

Now available in the Chimeraworld # 2 anthology. So far, most of my stories have been publicly available in online zines. Scroll down to read them.

+++ stories free online +++

Fashion Fatale

Exclusive to This Site, released March 2005: Some girls take "fitting-in" to the extreme. A surreal glimpse into the perversity of fashion. Due to graphic sexual content and taboo, adults only.

Published: May 2004 in The House of Pain. I would recommend reading Baby Hunter first...then maybe Acetone Enema. If you're looking for something that pushes those limits a little further, then read this one...but only then. Some real trolls seemed to think this one was about the best thing I've written. But most people found it way too gratuitous; and it made them too uncomfortable to finish it. Or, if they did finish it, it left them feeling like they'd been conned into reading some really sick pornography. Anyways, it's my vampire story. And I think it twisted the folklore beyond recognition. Don't say I didn't warn you. Please, adults only. Expect a few surprises. Enjoy.
Published: Autumn 2003 in The House of Pain. I've had some very good reviews. The editor warned her readers of its disturbing content. Read it for yourself.
Published: May 2003 in The House of Pain. The story: A man purchases a phallic-shaped black rubber object from an antique store. The dark powers inherent in the object turn his life upside down as he undergoes a bizarre transformation. The story is told as a confessional narrative. Generally speaking, the story is about male sexuality and obsession.
Published: January 2003 in The House of Pain. The story is told from the perspective of a man obsessing about the exploits of he and his headless fantasy lover. It contains explicit gore, offensive language and describes explicit sexual acts, including sodomy. Needless to say, this story is not for everyone. Persons under the age of 18 should not read it.

+++ essays +++

Published: Spring 2002 by The University of Minnesota Press. Clicking the link will download the journal in which the essay appears. Most people will find this journal extremely boring, if not incomprehensible. People who have some understanding of the Logical Positivist movement may find it thought-provoking or illuminating...or, who knows?...perhaps, even a laugh riot. If you fall into the latter category, I'd love to hear your take on it.

+++ poetry free online +++

The One Who Takes

Perfection

The Winds of Autumn

The Floor Is Fine

+++ books +++

I don't know...starry-eyed writer, looking to turn a small profit from his writing without getting royally screwed over [see The Sodomy Corner for more]. This is the misadventure that's kept me writing. You can read the one and only review it got by clicking on the title above. It could've used a more thorough edit than it got. Apart from that, it's got camp potential and exceptional cover art...Plus a lot of sex and violence.

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