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From interview with Robert Anton Wilson:

DARE
Are there any existing political systems you admire?

WILSON
Scandinavian socialism. I found the Scandinavians to be about the most admirable people in Europe. clean streets, a low crime rate, a general air of high civilization - luxuries for all and a total absence of slums, poverty, and ugliness. They seem very happy and productive, with one of the most way out futurist movements in the world. They're the California of Europe.
I hate to sound like a Marxist, which I'm not, but the reason you haven't heard about Scandinavian Socialism is because the media of this country is controlled by rich people who are scared shitless of socialism. They want Americans to think there's only one type of socialism, Soviet Communism, which is the kind of place where dissident scientists get thrown in lunatic asylums, all of which is true. Americans are paranoid about Russians but Scandinavians regard them with amusement; they're those backwards people who think that you can only have socialism by putting all the poets and painters in jail. The Scandinavians reward their poets and they don't put anyone in jail for dissident political opinions.

DARE
Aren't you scared of getting in trouble, of finally saying the one thing you shouldn't have said?

WILSON
We're all living in a world in which one cannot apply one's highest ideals without getting into a lot of trouble. I've gotten in trouble, but I haven't gone to jail, which shows I may have more common sense than Tim Leary. I certainly don't claim to be more intelligent than him. He's the most intelligent human being I've ever encountered.

DARE
Do you share his conclusions about LSD?

WILSON
LSD breaks up habitual circuits of the brain. It opens new circuits, breaks down old circuits, and there's no evidence whatsoever that it destroys brain cells. LSD is very much a metaprogramming device, it changes the basic programs, that's why it's dangerous. It creates acute paranoid states in bureaucrats who've never used it.
To get the best out of it needs a scientific or religious approach, one or the other. People who are just tripping for the fun of it are more likely to imprint a whole new reality tunnel or personality on themselves that they weren't looking for. If you're going to do LSD, you should decide the changes you're aiming at and structure the trip to lead to that kind of change.
There's no doubt that you can change every part of your personality with LSD, that's why Leary calls it a reimprinting drug. It changes basic imprints which are much more rigid than conditioning. There's no doubt that I am a different person than I am before I took it.
I was a statistical materialist before I started experimenting with LSD, that is I didn't believe the laws of the universe were absolutely deterministic because I knew enough quantum mechanics to know that it broke them down. But I was still a statistical materialist, everything could be explained by the accidental permutations of little hunks of energy that solidify into matter. I was perfectly satisfied with that explanation of the universe, and I never realized that I was as dogmatic about it as any Catholic was about their faith. After LSD impacted on me, I became a total agnostic, and I'm not dogmatic about anything any more. I know that every system I make up is my own brain making up a system. None of the systems is big enough to include the whole universe, so all of my beliefs are only relatively true. Some are undoubtedly wrong because I'm not that brilliant that I never make a mistake.
There are a lot of people who don't realize how conceited they are. By asserting with such certitude the things they believe in, they don't realize that they're saying "I'm the smartest person in the world, I can answer all the questions." People like Carl Sagan. I just don't know how he can be so sure of everything when, by and large, the more intelligent you get, the more you realize you can't be sure of anything.

DARE
What is the next stage in evolution?

WILSON
The model I use is adapted from Leary. The oral-bio-survival circuit is what the amoebas operate on - taste everything. Babies operate on that too. That's the circuit we go back to whenever we're in danger, and depending on what we imprinted there, we will either attack or run away.
Then there's Freud's anal circuit, which has to do with claiming territory and status within it. That's when we go through the mammalian rituals concerning who runs the family, outsmarting our brothers and sisters and trying to run the whole show, imprinting our domination and submission reflexes. It's why people can hold jobs; their boss becomes a father substitute and they attach all their reflexes to him.
Next there's the rational circuit in which we do our abstract reasoning with words and mathematics, and the sociosexual circuit where we imprint the pattern of how we relate to people; with what degree of amity or sexuality. Everybody has a different imprint, and society has only one general set of rules, so everybody is a heretic as far as that circuit is concerned. Those four circuits are the natural child, the adoptive child, the adult, and the parent in Berne's system.
Beyond that is the neurosomatic circuit, where, through yoga or drugs or body work like Rolfing, one gimmick or another, you are able to turn on to your own body in a new way, and instead of just reacting to the conditioned and imprinted programs on the first four circuits, you are able to relax and go with the flow and enjoy life.
The sixth circuit is the neurogenetic circuit, which has to do with morpho-genetic resonances, coming in contact with the experience and religious symbols of your ancestors, learning that they've been controlling you below the level of consciousness all your life. This is what Shamanism traditionally deals with. Jungian psychology was the first attempt to deal with it scientifically, now we've got dozens of others trying to bring people into harmony with archetypes of the collective unconscious or genetic heritage.
The next is the metaprogramming circuit, which is learning how the brain can work on the brain, how you can imprint different identities and reality tunnels as you go along. Before you get to that circuit, you have no idea what true freedom really is, you're being manipulated all the time whether you know it or not. It's the circuit where you develop true choice.

DARE
How do you get there?

WILSON
If you do a lot of work on the 5th and 6th circuits, the 7th tends to click on. First you get a lot of synchronicities, meaningful coincidences, accidental reinforcement from your environment, like someone coming by to loan you a book that's exactly the one you were looking for. Jung found that his patient's dreams had more and more symbols out of Greek and Egyptian and Hindu mythology as they progressed into that circuit, even without studying them consciously. They pulled them out of the collective unconscious, which I think is actually the morphogenetic field.
Above that there's the non-local quantum circuit, which is the circuit in which we get true out of body experiences, cosmic identification with the whole of existence.
We're learning so much about the latter four circuits, which Leary calls the extraterrestrial circuits, that we're moving into a new stage of evolution. More people are on the fifth circuit than ever before in history, and there are growing sixth and seventh circuit minorities. It's not an accident. We're changing just as we have to change. These circuits were there, ready to be used, when we got to this point in evolution. Earlier, mankind could just coast along on the first four circuits, and only visionaries and mystics and poets ever turned on the higher circuits. Now everyone does it.

DARE
How to you teach people to turn on their higher circuits?

WILSON
You've got to teach with humor to make the pill palatable. Besides, humor is the essence of realizing our true situation in space and time. We are these tiny fallible beings crawling around on a relatively small planet, and anybody who pontificates dogmatically about anything is giving evidence that they are an idiot, even if you agree with them. They shouldn't sound that certain. We think we're so damn smart and we know so fucking little.


new poems:



"Dead Pacifists"



must we be nice

to the parasites

and the virus only doing it's job?

my soul, they allow me to keep

but my life they wish to rob







"How We Forget"



The length of a dawning

of linear time

Shall bounce back the breath

of a yawning divine

Rivers of words, blurring

elongated, wash up abrupt

on the beach of consiousness

As I drift inbetween worlds

Madness winks from a neighboring nook

Mi largo perdido amigo

The familiar, fetal-shaped brain groove

Snuggled, warm, hidden but for dreams

Sleep is sacred

How soon we forget

The power of belief

Imagination's holes

In reality's net







"Tea 'n Turkey"



manic thinking

caffeine's masterplan

settle down

tryptophan



carbon dating

aiding man

history

grains of sand







"Pleading The Fifth (Dimension)"



Outside of time

A true poet gives no pause

To accumulate the disease

Of mortality



The mind will still move

Yet the pen will not scribble

No ripple

Will reach those inside

From Robert Anton Wilson's Ishtar Rising or, Why the Goddess Went to Hell and What to Expect Now That She's Returning:

"Cary Grant was once told, "Every time I see you on the screen, I think, 'I wish I was Cary Grant.'" He replied, "That's just what I think!"

I've been repeating that story ever since I first heard it, and it never fails to amuse audiences, all of whom seem to understand it immediately. Everybody groks that Archie Leach, the poor boy from Liverpool who became "Cary Grant" never fully believed in "Cary Grant," since Cary was, after all, his own invention. On the other hand, here's a similar story, which I also like to tell, that produces very mixed reactions, with some people laughing and others looking puzzled or slightly offended.

An art dealer once went to Pablo Picasso and said, "I have a bunch of 'Picasso' canvasses that I was thinking of buying. Would you look them over and tell me which are real and which are forgeries?" Picasso obligingly began sorting the paintings into two piles. Then, as the Great Man added one particular picture to the fake pile, the dealer cried, "Wait a minute, Pablo. That's no forgery. I was visiting you the weekend you painted it." Picasso replied imperturbably, "No matter. I can fake a Picasso as well as any thief in Europe."

Personally, I find this story not only amusing but profoundly disturbing. It has caused me to think, every time I finish a piece of writing, "Is this a real Robert Anton Wilson, or did I just fake a Robert Anton Wilson?" Sometimes, especially with a long novel, I find it impossible to convince myself that I know the answer. After all, as Nietzche said, "there are no facts, only interpretations"...... "

a song I wrote (long before I read the above):

"What's That Something Else?"

Everything is an interpretation of something else
Everything is an interpretation of something else
Everything is an interpretation of something else
Everything is an interpretation of something else

But what's that something else?
But what's that something else?
But what's that something else?
But what's that something else?

And how can I feel it?
Without becoming it?
And what's that something else?
Where's that something else?
Is it hiddin in the sky or ground?
Or is it inside ourselves?

Everything is an interpretation of something else
But what's that something else?



Thursday, October 27, 2005

Junk DNA and Dark Matter
what bothers me more than anything is the fact that 97% of our DNA seems to serve no purpose (or we just don't know what it does or did yet) and 90% of the universe is so-called "dark matter" or "dark energy" and we don't know what that matter or energy consist of.
11:52 pm pdt

Saturday, October 22, 2005

Wernher von Braun:
"Nature does not know extinction; all it knows is transformation. Everything science has taught me, and continues to teach me, strengthens my belief in the continuity of our spiritual existence after death."
1:49 pm pdt

Monday, October 10, 2005

I love Satan
because of what i just read in "The Transmigration of Timothy Archer" by Philip K. Dick. I loved this book immediately. i like some of his previous stuff, as well, but mostly for the ideas, not so much the writing. but in this book the writing, the ideas, the story are all on another level i hadn't witnessed in his novels before. i only discovered him this year and have read nine of his books so far. he says that Satan's sin was that he wanted to become God, but the reason he wanted to BECOME God was because he wanted to KNOW God, and he wanted to KNOW God because he LOVED God. that's what true love is. you want to completely know the person. to completely know a person is impossible unless you live as that person, their entire life, every experience, but if you did that you wouldn't be you inside a person experiencing their life, you'd BECOME that person. you'd lose yr own identity because you'd have no perspective but the person's perspective that you've become. Satan was a saint. he knew the consequences and that he was faced with eternal damnation but it was worth it for that one brief moment of really knowing what it is like to be the creator, the source, that which was there before there was a there. if wanting enlightenment and absolute knowledge and experience then i am just as guilty as Satan. we all are, whether you admit it or not. some might say they are satisfied not knowing. ignorance IS bliss for some, on the outside, for the superficial masses, but deep down in everyone is a true will seeking God, loving God, wanting to know God, wanting to become God. all of us ARE becoming God, whether we like it or not. Satan was simply in a rush. it takes a while. if you fight progression, science, and evolution, you are either completely against God and man or you are living in fear of change. or both. these are the people who become politicians. the chimpanzee brained. and the couch potato sheep. what they fail to realize is that you have to build a soul that will be able to survive the body. you are not just granted with that. you need to practice surviving without a body before you die. but i've gotten off topic. what i mean to say is that i am not able to love directly another human being. if i loved the person i think i might actually love i would want to know her and i would pay more attention and ask her questions and i wd attempt to get as close as possible and remain eternally fascinated and interested in every aspect of her existence. this is precisely what is NOT happening, so there is conflict and bad hurt feelings and a big mess, a huge block, a sharp wedge between not just her and i but the whole world and i. but i still love God, just like everybody and so i try to get close to It in different ways: drugs, self-delivered orgasm (or with a partner), enjoying music and other products and art created by man and woman and i love trees and i love books. it's all different aspects of God, including myself so i love myself, as imperfect as i might be. and it's a lot easier for me to read a book than to communicate my love to a real person so i sit at home and read. because i want to know all about this illusionary universe God has set up for us and itself, which is us and everything, to observe and experience itself. God loves us, as well, because It wants to know us (this odd aspect of itself) and to know us it must become us and It will. It will. In 2012? ha ha! perhaps.....and Satan will be there, at the end, with the rest of us, as well. because he will have woken up and realized that his Hell is self-imposed, and that he WAS God all along. told this way, who wouldn't love Satan? Hail Satan! Give him a hug!

here are the books that i bought today at the library for $15:

1. Meditations by Marcus Aurelius
2. The Human Body and The Human Brain by Isaac Asimov
3. The Second Ring of Power by Carlos Castaneda (hardcover, first printing? 1977, marked with a "35" on first page (35 dollars or cents? i bought it for $1)
4. The Odessa File by Frederick Forsyth
5. The New Golden Bough by James George Frazer (already read the better, larger version of The Golden Bough from Moorpark Library and loved it and mainly bought this one to use as a reference book on religion, magic, etc.
6. The Interpretation of Dreams by Sigmund Freud
7. Ladies and Gentlemen Lenny Bruce by Albert Goldman (sweet find. maybe one day i'll have time to read it. it's HUGE!)
8. Secrets of the SS by Glenn B. Infield
9. The Hospital: The View From Bellevue by Laurence E. Karp, MD
10. The Navaho by Clyde Kluckhohn and Dorothea Leighton
11. If You Meet The Buddha On The Road Kill Him! The Pilgrimage of Psychotherapy Patients by Sheldon B. Kopp (another great find! listen the quote on the back: "The most important things that each man must learn no one else can teach him. Once he accepts this disappointment, he will be able to stop depending on the therapist, the guru who turns out to be just another struggling human being."--holy shit, how many lightbulbs snapped in the people who were ready to understand what they read when they read this back in 1972? and how many think they understand and move on with their busy life, never really stopping to think about anything. not only should everyone stop and smell the flowers, they should want to know how a flower operates, how it communicates, what it's made of. on page 23: "Love is more than simply being open to experience the anguish of another person's suffering. It is the willingness to live with the helpless knowing that we can do nothing to save the other from his pain.")
12. Men and Atoms by William L. Laurence (also from the library, i checked out a 6 part series on videocassettes called Einsteins Relativity and the Quantum Revolution: Modern Physics for Non-Scientists. not for school, i just want to understand quantum physics).
13. The Nature of the Universe by Lucretius (yes, but which universe?)
14. Selected Essays by Montaigne
15. People and Places by Margaret Mead
16. From Fish To Philosopher by Homer W. Smith (blurb on the back states: "All physicians, especially those treating edema with diuretic agents, will read this book on the evolution or our internal environment with profit and pleasure." so, obviously perfect for me, right?)
17. Lust For Life/Immortal Wife--Two "great" novels by Irving Stone (author of The Agony and The Ecstacy, another book from a library that sits on my shelf unread.)
18. The Mystery Of Hermann Goering's Suicide by Ben E. Swearingen
19. The secret Life of Plants by Peter Tompkins and Christopher Bird (one of Chloe Turnbows favorites, i remembered, and have been wanting to read, so perfect.)
20. The Complete Short Stories of Mark Twain
21. Best Known Works by Voltaire (with a receipt from Bremers Department Store dated Jun 4, 1959)

my biology teacher was at the book sale. she came up to me and before i saw her said something about "buying books on biology?" and i said "Where would those be?" why did i say that? and i said i'm also taking sociology and picked up a couple books relating to that. she showed me some paperback she found, biology related, and walked off. she's very nice. i hope i wasn't rude. the ladies running the sell were very happy with the large purchase and i joined "The Friends of the Olympia Timberland Library" for the student price of 50 cents. as a member, one of the perks is being notified of upcoming book sales and allowed in to shop two hours before non-members. i don't think i'll need to attend any sales any time soon. when i got home i had a package from Fillmore Library. i figured it was my Prometheus Rising book i had lent to the librarian Cathy, but it felt bulkier and when i opened it up there was my book and another book that she bought for me (The Fairy Tales of Hermann Hesse) and a postcard apologizing for the lateness of the return. that's a brand new $16 dollar book. very nice of her and defintely look forward to reading it. more importantly she found Prometheus Rising "fascinating" and is planning on picking up a copy of her own. everyone should own that book! maybe she'll read his other stuff and become a Discordian.

back on the subject of love and my inability to direct it at living targets.....

well, i'd like to be able to do it. and i plan on continuing to try.
2:48 pm pdt

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