My Devil Spawned Weekend From HELL

I would like to start off by saying... HFS.. I've never had such a bad weekend in my life. >.< It just wouldn't end either. Started early on Thursday and didn't quit until the wee hours of Monday morning. I'm not even sure where to begin explaining all that went on the past few days. Man, only a few days have passed by it feels like much longer than that. Maybe going in chonological order will be easiest. Starting on Thursday, I recieved a phone call from one of my girlfriends Gina, about another friend of ours.. we'll call her Baby. Gina expressed concern over baby's recent disappearence for a few days. So, we decide to go over to her apartment to check on her. Without going into details suffice to say that police reports were made and it was an all around mess and tramatizing experience for us all. I spent the night there to offer baby some company and moral support. So Friday rolls around. We are supposed to go swing dancing. It's kind of a go out as much as we can because Gina is leaving for Korea for 2 1/2 months on business. Leaving this Thrusday actually. Oh, and did I mention, baby is moving this thursday to a new apartment and hasn't even started packing yet?!?!? ARG!!! So, we're already stressed with gina leaving and the baby moving on the same damn day, and the crap happened on thrusday. Well, friday night fell thru, most everyone else flaked so it was Gina, myself, and our friend James. Who has of late, turned into the token male of the group. (am i making any sense here? if not.. well it's because it really doesn't make much sense to me either.. but try to follow along >.< ) We decide to walk around Redondo Beach and just relax, we get a call from baby... somehow she's at the same place as the guy who we filed a police report on and she wants to confront him. So starts more drama.. thankfully that ended with out too much incident. So ends friday night. (Gina's spending the night there that night.. we seem to be taking turns making sure baby isn't alone and feels safe.)

I think Saturday will need it's own paragraph. I have James' old computer stuff. The plan is upgrade my system with them to make it so that at least i can play DAoC and other similar games that my current system can't handle. Well my other friend is supposed to come and work on it for me. Now he's been telling me he's going to do this for oh.. i'd say 2 months now. Finally i find someone else willing to give me a hand. I tell him that he doesn't need to worry about it i've got so-and-so coming over on sat to work on it. Well ... he insists that he has time on saturday for sure and don't worry he'll take care of it. >.< ok.. so i cancel with the other guy... and i call at 1 in the afternoon to see when he'll be here. "Oh, i'm at the office right now.. i should be at your place by 3:30 or 4" Ok, .. so 4 rolls around.. he's still not here. Matter of fact.. he's online.. i msg him: "hello? are you there?" response "hold on" Well that's the last i heard from him the rest of the night. I was furious, he was showing online the whole fucking time. No phone call, sorry i'm late i'll be there soon.. or sorry i'm not going to make it tonight. This whole time i had plans with my bf that i had to cancel because the computer fixing was looking like it was going to start late. Not to mention Gina is out with baby trying to comfort her and and stuck at home.. waiting.. and waiting. Now normally, i'd just get pissed call and say.. : FU.. i'm going out.. but my little sis and mother were waiting for him too.. this fucker is supposed to be a family friend.. oh man... so my 12 yr old sister who was looking forward to his visit asks.. "why isn't he here yet??" ugh.. >.< i'm going to strangle this guy. I wasn't going to even bother calling him to ask where he was .. i was so pissed. Then i started worrying, maybe he left his msn on and got into a car accident and that is why he didn't call. So i break down and call his cell to preserve what's left of my sanity.
me: hello???
him: oh .. uh hi
me: where are you???
him: .. uh.. still at the office?? (i'm turning phenominal shades of red now because i'm so pissed)
me: (voice rising) what the hell are you doing?@?!?
him: oh.. uh.. i got caught up with what i was working on
me: (full on yelling) Too caught up to pick up the fucking phone to call me and tell me you're going to not make it!!!! Do you have any idea what time it is now?!?!?! You are 4 hours late and I've been waiting here.. my whole fucking family has been waiting for you!! You didn't even have the decency to call me and you KNEW i had plans tonight not to mention Gina is with baby and all this crap is happening with her and i need to be there to help and i've been stuck at home waiting for your pathetic ass... what the hell do you have to say for yourself?!?!!?!?
him: **silence**
me: FU!!! I don't need your fucking help whatever (i hung up on him)
ARG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok.. well that was the last straw with him. That's the end of our friendship. I've been "good" friends with him for 6 years.. but over the past 3 he's progressively become basically an ass. I keep trying to tell myself that it's stress and other crap, but this is it. You don't pull that kind of BS to even strangers let alone ppl who you call your really close friends?!?!? Fuck that. GR.. ok end of that so-called friendship...

Is this weekend sounding like fun to you yet?!?!? oh but wait.. it isn't NEARLY over yet >.< Well, after i hung up the phone on his pathetic ass i left to go meet Gina and baby in Koreatown. I spent the rest of the evening and most of the wee hours of the morning keeping baby company. Sunday, I barely crawl to church at 8:45am and manage to make it through mass and kid's choir practice. I get home and make plans to see the bf because i had to cancel on him the night before. Well, to make a long story short.. we had a great dinner.. went to the beach to talk.. and both of us basically agreed that we were avoiding some major issues that in our hearts we knew wouldn't change and that because of that we'd never make a marriage work.. we could keep being bf and gf.. but we'd just be kidding ourselves. So, we agreed to end it after 3 years.. 1 month and 1 day. It was the most civil and heart wrenching breaking breakup i've ever had. I'm getting choked up .. so i'm going to stop writing about this. I ended up calling James, Gina , and baby and we pigged out on creamcheese with salsa with tortilla chips and poundcake with strawberries, blueberries, raspberries and cool whip with beer. I was there until 4:30am getting cheered up..

I finally managed to get up the courage to get out of bed today at 5:30pm ... i'm in a daze.. baby still needs to pack... gina is gearing up to leave.. *sigh* the only good thing that has happened is that it looks like i'm going to visit korea during spring break while gina is there.. a much needed vacation. soo... that was my weekend... i'm exhausted.. numb.. and a ton of other things... I'm afraid to even think about the fact that john is no longer my bf... i scared that whatever amount of control i have left will disappear. I'm in a daze...