The sun's out! Shockingly, it's warm and sunny in London. We may have a summer after all. Had a quiet weekend of shopping, spring cleaning, and laying about. Watched a fantastic Danish comedy lastnight - En kort en lang. A gay comedy that might be the first "gay" film that didn't make me want to throw something at the screen! It's the story of a gay couple who are thrown into crisis when one of them has an affair with the other's sister-in-law. It all ends happily and without an ectasy overdose, AIDS death, techno soundtrack, or male hustlers. It did feature a cute-as-pie male lead, a fantastically designed flat, and a curious woman who smoked a pipe throughout.

Sad, but true. The long silence is because I'm freaked out about life right now. Organic has decided to close the London office and merge some people with Agency.com. I knew nothing about Agency.com and was unprepared for this big change. I know it's only a job, but when you're thousands of miles away from friends and family and you're about to see your team and colleagues scattered to the winds and when you have no idea who will give you a work visa in this job climate -- well, it's overwhelming. I stormed. I sobbed uncontrollably. I sulked. I stayed home for two days overwhelmed by sadness. Organic was more than a job -- it was a full blown, emotionally dependent relationship and then suddenly, it was no more.

With the passing of time, however, I've become hopeful and even anxious about what's coming next. Will it be Agency? They've seemed sincere in their interest. They're not terribly dissimilar to Organic. It would be safe and familiar and more of the same and maybe just a bit better. But am I not being courageous enough? Should I be taking a bigger step in a new direction for my career? Am I spending to much time making too much noise in my own head? Will these hives ever go away?

What's sweet are the former colleagues who've come out of the woodwork to wish us well. Say what you want about Organic (and some day I will say it all) it brought together some very tremendously smart and interesting people.