Allah Calligraphy Glowing Light Dream
September 19, 2006


I wake up and I'm in my bedroom, in bed I think, and Ishaq is there. The wall is clear, it's the wall where the goose picture is and Ishaq's ancestor altar, on the west wall of my room. I can't tell for sure in my dream if I'm in my regular room, but it is definitely what is understood to be my bedroom in the dream. I can't remember him speaking much, or what he said if he spoke. I think he was dressed in his t-shirt and jeans. He raises his hand and writes "Allah" in Arabic on the wall, and it's written in this golden-green light. I can't tell if he has something he is writing with, or just using his hand and fingers to make the light. Then he moves over to the right of the Allah calligraphy and begins to write and I either know or understand, or he tells me in some way, that he is writing the Fateha on my bedroom wall, in this same golden green light.

Later I created my first mixed media art piece, inspired by this visitation (picture below). The poem, tree, and feather card pieces are from sympathy cards I received from various friends and family.

The Ring Dream, November 2, 2006


I was waiting with Ishaq at a dinner table for his daughter to come have dinner with us. Ishaq had brought champagne and there were two glasses full on the altar, regular champagne flutes. I asked him what they were for, and I was smiling, because I knew he was going to ask me to marry him. He told me we had to wait and somebody, I forget who he said, was coming to play music. Then I had my arms around him, I think we kissed but I can't remember, but I do remember putting my arms around him as he was sitting in his chair. The chairs were dark ladder back chairs, and there was a window with white curtains, I think, behind Ishaq. The floor was nice wood. And the table was set simply with white dishes, I think, and the table was dark wood too. I was so happy and loved him so much. In the dream he never actually said the words but somehow it was understood. Then he was giving me four rings; the first two were the wedding set; it was a silver band with ruby colored stones for the engagement part, then a plain ring that was a matte silver color band for the wedding ring, it had some texture, maybe stones. He also gave me two more rings, to wear on my pinky; one was like the little snake ring I already have and one I think was a sort of twisted silver band. He told me I could have the rings sized later to fit.

I remember the glasses on the altar weren't sitting even and one tipped over, but when I sat it upright it appeared nothing had spilled.

I woke up clearly remembering the dream, and wrote it down. The following February, I found the wedding ring at a music festival - a plain silver band inlaid with nine stones made of what is called "Eagle's Eye" - like a grey-blue tigers eye stone. I looked up the meanings of the stone and found it is used to communicate with those who are in other dimensions, and also has been called the stone with the key to the kingdom of heaven. There were nine inlaid pieces and nine is the numerological number that corresponds to our anniversary date.

The Wind, July 19, 2008

I was out at a friend's summer gathering in the country. It was two years ago at this gathering that Ishaq and I picked fresh cherries, and swam in the Siuslaw River, and sang songs together in the evening "talent show" that always happens.

For a while I sat by myself at the river, and I talked to Ishaq...I asked him "are you here with me right now?" and to give me a sign if he was. It was very hot and calm, but as soon as I said those words aloud, a wind came up, a strong one, and it blew the canoe that was tethered next to the dock I was sitting on so that it swung around and bumped it! Ishaq just loved canoeing out there. I said, "yep, you are here!" and the wind went away and the day went back to being calm and hot and peaceful.