08/12/09:

"For someone half as smart, 
  You'd be a work of art
  You put yourself apart
  And I can't help you until you start"

-- Elliott Smith, "Baby Brittain,"
XO (1998)

06/02/09:

"I can't talk to you
 You think I'm lost inside my mind
 You're like an old tattoo
 And I know you'll fade in time

... I'm going faster, you're going backwards
   You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
   I'm going faster, I know what I'm after
   I should have been after it all along"

-- Rachael Yamagata, "Faster," Elephant ... Teeth Sinking Into Heart (2008)

03/29/09:

Once you feel something real
let me know, let it show
I could be your your honey,
let it go, let it go
And if you should see me
through someone else's eyes
And if into me you see
more than disguise
I come down to your knees
and if ears could speak
I like to think
what they'd say to inspire
Your sweetest desire
Since I first met you
I found the love I lost
Just like you, just like you

-- Beth Orton, "Ted's Waltz," Daybreaker (2002)

12/23/08:

"You're the kind of person 
You meet at certain dismal dull affairs. 
Center of a crowd, talking much too loud 
Running up and down the stairs. 
Well, it seems to me that you have seen too much in too few years. 
And though you've tried you just can't hide 
Your eyes are edged with tears. 
You better stop 
And look around ...
Here comes your 19th nervous breakdown."

-- The Rolling Stones, "19th Nervous Breakdown"

6/24/08:

"Put me up above the boy
  The one I love I should destroy
  My sweet tooth has burned a hole
  Forget about it all
  He hit so hard, I saw stars
  He hit so hard, I saw God"

-- Hole, "Hit So Hard," Celebrity Skin (1998)

1/28/08:

Don't open your eyes
You won't like what you see
The devils of truth
steal the souls of the free
don't open your eyes
take it from me
I have found you can find
Happiness in slavery

-- Nine Inch Nails, "Happiness in Slavery," Broken (1994)

09/19/07:

"Childhood living is easy to do
  The things you wanted
  I bought them for you
  Graceless lady you know who I am
  You know I can't let you 
  Slide through my hands

  Wild horses couldn't drag me away"

-- The Rolling Stones, "Wild Horses," Forty Licks (2002)

05/09/07:

"I watch as the daylight crawls
  Past the shadows hanging on the walls
  It's been a long time since I felt the stain
  Of yesterday getting in my way

  I'm alive but tell me am I free
  I've got eyes but tell me can I see
  The sky is falling and no one knows
  It shouldn't be hard to believe
  Shouldn't be this difficult to breathe
  The sky is falling and no one knows"

-- Lifehouse, "Sky is Falling," Stanley Climbfall (2003)

HAPPY GRADUATION TO ME.

03/15/2007:

"The waiting drove me mad
   You're finally here and I'm a mess
   I take your riches back
   Can't let you roam inside my head

   I don't want to take what you can give
   I would rather starve than eat your bread
   I would rather run but I can't walk
   Guess I'll lie alone just like before"

-- Pearl Jam, "Corduroy," Live on Two Legs (1998)

HAPPY SPRING BREAK

08/01/06:

"Monty this seems strange to me.
  The movies had that movie thing,
  but nonsense has a welcome ring
  and heroes don't come easy.

  Now, nonsense isn't new to me.
  I know my head, I know my feet,
  but mischief knocked me in the knees.
  Said, Just let go. Just let go."

-- REM, "Monty Got a Raw Deal," Automatic for the People (1992)

07/10/06:

"Take your eyes off me 
 There's nothing here to see 
 Just trying to keep my head together 
 And as we make our vow 
 Let us remember how
 There's nothing good that lasts 
 forever"

-- David Gray, "Freedom," A New Day at Midnight (2002)

-- Tegan and Sara, "Wake Up Exhausted," So Jealous (2004)

03/21/06:

"I'm undecided about you again
  I can be right that you're not here
  It's double sided 'cause I ruined it all
  But also saved myself
  By never believing you dear"

-- Fiona Apple, "O' Sailor," Extraordinary Machine (2005)

02/13/05:

"Oh no, we're just like old friends
 We just can't pretend
 That lovers make amends
 We are reasons so unreal
 We can't help but feel
 that something has been lost here
 But please, you know you're just like me
 Next time I promise we'll be
 Perfect"

-- Smashing Pumpkins, "Perfect," Adore (1998)

a wonderful piece of romantic sarcasm

02/01/06:

"Put me up above the boy
  the one I love I should destroy
  my sweet tooth has burned a hole
  forget about it all
  He hit so hard, I saw stars
  He hit so hard, that I saw God"

-- Hole, "Hit So Hard," Celebrity Skin (1998)

12/05/05:

"All the kids will eat it up if it's packaged properly
  Steal a sound and imitate keep a format equally
  Not an ode but just the facts where our world is nowadays
  An idea is what we lack it doesn't matter anyway"

-- Nirvana, "Aero Zeppelin," Incesticide (1992)

11/14/05:

"I've seen so many doctors
I don't believe in them
and I've never had anybody worth a damn
And I don't know why
I am the way I am
But I'm so sick of being the way I am"

-- Lori Carson, "Whole Heart," Everything I Touch Runs Wild (1997)

Some days, I agree with this quote, some days I don't.

11/03/05:

“Who am I to need you when I'm down
Where are you when I need you around
Your life is not your own

And all I ask you
Is for another chance
Another way around you
To live by circumstance, once again

Who am I to need you now
To ask you why to tell you no
To deserve your love and sympathy
You were never meant to belong to me”

-- Smashing Pumpkins, “Crestfallen,” Adore (1998)

10/27/05:

"I am likely to miss the main event
  If I stop to cry and complain again
  So I will keep a deliberate pace
  Let the damn breeze dry my face

  Ooooh mister wait until you see
  What I'm gonna be
  I've got a plan, a demand and it just began
  And if you're right, you'll agree
  Here's coming a better version of me

  Here it comes a better version of me"

-- Fiona Apple, "Better Version of Me" Extraordinary Machine (2005)

9/27/05:

"A long December and there's reason to believe
  Maybe this year will be better than the last
  I can't remember the last thing that you
  said as you were leaving
  Now the days go by so fast
  And it's one more day up in the canyons
  And it's one more night in Hollywood
  If you think that I could be forgiven
  ...I wish you would"

-- The Counting Crows, "A Long December," Recovering the Satellites (1996)

Happy upcoming Rosh Hashanah.

09/16/05:

“I wish I was an alien, at home behind the sun

  I wish I was the souvenir you kept your

  house key on. I wish I was the pedal break

  that you depended on.  I wish I was

  the verb to trust, and never let you down. 

  I wish I was the radio song,

  the one that you turned up, 

  I wish, I wish, I wish, I wish,

  I guess it never stops.”

-- Pearl Jam, “Wishlist,” Yield (1998)

08/27/05:

"Lying wide awake in the dark, 
  Tryin' to figure out where you are
  Always going nowhere,
  afraid of going somewhere
  And somewhere's a place in your heart
 
  Sometimes when I think about you,
  Why you're always running away
  Sitting in your car, changing who you are
  And drowning the thoughts of life in the music"

-- Liz Phair, "Red Light Fever," Liz Phair (2003)

08/03/05:

"she came out west to find the sun
  she lost her name but found a new one
  Amy goes to school all day
  but at night in the neighborhood
  they call her Amphetamine
  she is perfect in that fucked up way
  that all the magazines
  seem to want to glorify these days
  she looks like a teenage anthem
  she looks like she used to be
  happy with the girl inside"

-- Everclear, "Amphetamine," So Much For the Afterglow (1997)

Sound familiar? It may have been a subconscious slip on my part.

07/27/05:

"And if I die today, I'll be the happy phantom
 and I'll go chasing the nuns out in the yard
 and I'll run naked in the street without my mask on
 
 And I will never need umbrellas in the rain
 I'll wake up in strawberry fields every day
 and the atrocities of school I can forgive
 the happy phantom has no right to bitch"

-- Tori Amos, "Happy Phanton," Little Earthquakes (1991)