Poetry

by Susan Berlin

BEFORE THE PARTY On the other side of the bedroom wall, their daughter sits, ramrod straight at the edge of her bed, so as not to put a single wrinkle in her starched, pleated party dress. With each blow, she smooths the bedspread beside her, smooths her skirt over skinned knees, smooths her pony-tail from the rubber band down to the bottom, likes the way the end of it curls around her wrist like a puppy's tongue, and she sits, feet pressed together in white socks and good, red shoes. When it's done, a window opens. A nose is blown. The girl inhales slowly, closes her eyes for a second, places her hands back in her lap, and watches the door. INTROVERT WITH 2-INCH SPINES As the ivy (dead in a cracked clay pot on the top back step) suggests, she's not good at keeping things alive -- her one success the cactus plant, cinched in a china cup, kept on the kichen window ledge. There's not much to do by way of care: it needs sun (which isn't up to her) and doesn't like to be talked to or touched. Today she moves the cup, for a better view, to the back porch; but then, spotting the ring it left, moves it back, covers it up. ACQUIRED TRAIT With tapwater running full-force in the sink and your face in a Turkish towel, the crying can't be heard beyond the bathroom door: this a trick I learned from my mother. She taught me, too, to disagree in silence, record thoughts like minutes at a meeting of mutes, all talk postponed until my father's next absence which was never far away. To this day, I can sit at the table, smile fixed in place as plates are pushed (un- touched) to the center, any hunger erased by the simple scrape of a captain's chair, no matter who's in it, no matter where. HOLDING Italian tenors make her cry well before the crescendo. Not familiar with their tongue, she identifies with the vast intake of breath, the shoring up of lungs with supplies for the long haul. She knows what to make of the way their bodies shake, banking all their strength and perfect pitch on one note and holding it long past the breaking point. FROM MY WINDOW From my window upstairs I see what the wind was up to last night, the white plastic lawnchairs tossed around, tipped upsidedown, flung under trees where they kneel at the trunks like repentant drunks evicted from the party of a neighboring friend to which I listened all night but did not attend. More on Susan Berlin
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