A Break, Doesn't Feel Like Spring

A "Friday" on Thursday due to our administrative holiday. We're off to the Santa Cruz area to visit past haunts, create new haunts and play on the beach. Of course we have rain in the forecast, so it is hardly the beach bum paradise that is really needed after this long winter. Just being around the ocean will be rejuvenating though.

Work has had successes and one relatively minor cock-up that should be resolved without too much pain but fewer books for us. It's hard keeping track of other people's money....

Inner work proceeds, although not without lapses in attention, like last night, which included shortness with the spouse, impatience and tears with the son (his tears, my impatience). We all pulled out of okay. This must be where grace comes in?

What's a bad day?

The day started good and connected: remembered my dreams and wrote them down, got up in time for some gym action, morning routine included a cooperative preschooler. So far so good. Then the car wouldn't start. A few phone calls later and changed clothes, I find my plans changed completely and having to strategize to still get to a dental appointment in my work-town. Managed with help from the support network. Then forget to turn the lights off on the borrowed vehicle (no auto turn-off?). Another road service call for a jump. Did I mention all of this was in the rain? A test of patience, learning to receive, and gratitude. Back to basics....

Managed Flux = Stability?

Ah yes, the Ides of March! First post for March and it's halfway over, mostly from a "retreat" of sorts which included a week of vacation from the job, a few doctor's appointments, and some time spent at the woo-woo store getting readings from the intuitive healer there. Working with several lessons at the moment, including learning to sit with the less than positive aspects of life (tedium, dissatisfaction, "stuckness"). This involves acknowledging the state of being for what it is and being patient with the inherent contradictions in life.

Currently applicable to work life, home life, spiritual "seeking" etc. The sitting is both figurative and literal as I have been putting my cushions (zafu and zabuton) to their proper use--not a regular occurrence but a little taste of that experience and hopefully becoming more of a routine practice.

Regarding the "ides"--I played the Soothsayer in my high school production of Shakespeare's Julius Caesar, so Beware!