In continuing discussions over many weeks, I learned more and more about this wonderful BEing, including a history of great difficulties she experienced living in this material world. An artist, she shared beautiful pictures of another realm, of beings radiating light and love, of cities of light and life, and a vision of a beautiful bridge-like structure that appeared to be not of this world (see Sanna). Yet she also told me of severe depression at that time and previous years, the result of years of her "failure" to "fit in" with others in school, and difficulty in accepting and experiencing the relationships with others we consider "normal" in this world.

I had recently read The Urantia Book at that time, which introduced to me the concept of the descending path as opposed to our spiritually ascending path. In meditation one day, I had a clear KNOWING that Sanna was a "descender", and also had a clear view of what that meant. Imagine, if you will, that when we first appear as an individual soul from the undifferentiated Source, that our soul is like a clear, empty sphere with a 1 gallon capacity. In our physical (human) life, we begin to fill that sphere with the EXPERIENCE of life, and it grows in capacity as we fill it with our individual expression of love. Imagine that, in our physical lifetime(s), we can expand that sphere to, say, a 10,000 gallon capacity, FILLED with our experience at this physical level.

Imagine then, that we ascend to another, higher level, say the morontia or semi-material level, in which our bodies are not as dense, and both we and our expression of love become more free. Lets say that at that level, we can expand our soul capacity to 100,000 gallons, now filled with our experiences at both levels. Then, imagine that we go to ANOTHER higher level, where we can expand to a 1 million gallon capacity, then to another, to a 1 billion gallon capacity, and on and on to eternity. This process, lets say, is the ASCENDING path.

The DESCENDING path, somehow, results in a BEing with a 1 billion gallon capacity for the knowing of love coming into our physical realm, but with NO EXPERIENCE. Somehow, that soul gained that capacity, that KNOWING of Truth, Love, in another way, maybe in another type of thought system that we cannot even comprehend. Faced with OUR reality, they see our limitations, our flaws. Though they do not JUDGE us, they somehow know their truth so fully that they cannot compromise, as we do, and cannot accept anything less than the PUREST expression of love.

I also realized that I had met and knew OTHER descenders, two of which are now 4 and 6 years old, two who are 21, and one aged 25 and one 28. All but one are female, and all exhibit the same radiance, the same pure expression of love. All of the older ones have experienced the same difficulties Sanna experienced, a knowing they were "different", and great difficulty in personal relationships. Yet each also have the ability to express themselves so clearly, even the very young ones, in manners that I find mind-boggling.

In the past year of communicating with Sanna over the internet, I have learned many things from this great relationship. One of the most astonishing things was to learn that I loved her as fully and completely as ANY human being I had ever met, yet I had NEVER EXPERIENCED HER WITH ANY HUMAN SENSES. ALL of our communication was through words on the computer screen, and I had never seen, heard, touched, smelled or tasted her physical body. That made even more clear to me that love is our INTERNAL feeling, and that others serve as the FOCAL POINT for us to SEE our love.

The lessons I have learned with Sanna have been awesome, and last week another one surfaced. In a discussion she lamented that learning is STUPID, and I had the profound realization that, as we ARE all part of One Mind, it IS stupid for us to go through the painful and slow process of learning things the hard way (through our human experience) when others have already done the same thing, and KNOW the result of that particular kind of experience.

In the last few years I have been blissfully happy with knowing NOTHING, not HAVING to know the details of any human experince, or future results of current actions, but having the faith and trust that the great I AM knows EVERYTHING, and will tell me what I need to know when I need to know it. I KNOW that some greater Intelligence, far wiser than I, is guiding and directing my life PERFECTLY. Then I can focus on LOVING rather than trying to LEARN or understand what is already KNOWN, which is ALL that IS.