I realized that I have eight steps to recovering an indulgent night of drinking before my hangover can come to completion:

1. Waking up and purposing that I will never ever drink again.
2. Denial of any actual wrong doings.
3. Realization of all my wrong doings.
4. Worrying about how many were affected by my wrong doings.
5. Guilt and Remorse (these last the longest, I think its all the parochial schooling as a child that establish this step).
6. Nesting to overcome the guilt and remorse.
7. A good cry courtesy of Prince and/or Maxwell.
8. Acceptance.

It was during step six that I actually realized I had actual steps to my recovery.  Which quickly brought about step seven – which was actually two-fold.  I haven’t cried in about a year, even though some seriously bad things have occurred, but I just didn’t have it in me to cry.  And then an argument with an acquaintance and coming across some very painful memories during the cleaning fit while Maxwell’s “Now” played in the background sent me over the edge to Cry-Ville, then acceptance came…We all screw up!  Try to learn from those mistakes and never repeat them, always sincerely apologize regardless if you meant to hurt someone or not and be happy with who you are regardless if someone or everyone else isn’t.