THE ORIGIN OF DARKNESS and the CREATION OF LIGHT
DARKNESS is endemic. Look out upon the universe. It's all there IS, really. What's unusual is LIGHT! Those little sparkles of the STARS against that immense darkness but they're THERE, brave little guys, sparkling away. The image is one we want to take to heart. Anyone who knows how to create a spark of light should do it, cuz DARKNESS IS pressing in on us, MORE AND MORE these days. It's what there's MORE OF and glimmering stars like YOU and me, or like you and I COULD BE if we worked on ourselves..... are what there's less of.
ALL of us are treading the BOZO WHEEL, a circular hamster wheel of dented relationships, houses we're stuck in, jobs we hate, clients who are horrors, work done so repetitively, that what once interested us, now bores us but rents are high so we have to do it 8 hours a day. So we're left exhausted, with bozo activities, eroding ourselves, wasting time, wasting the flower of youth, boozing, partying, drinking/ eating/spending our cash which could equate freedom to study, work on our art form or on an interesting charity that we created to salary ourselves while we do good for the planet ---without worrying about the rent.
Youth is the time big money can flow in, as you can start any business. You can start ONE BUSINESS a year, farm them out to your CHUMCLUSTER and then start another one. Smart, clever businesses, interesting ones. Lucrative ones.
But you don't because you've never seen a model of kids doing businesses so you do the ignorant BOZO LIST above. We may not see a way out of this rut as it's addictive. What has happened is that each of us becomes the effect of his habits and sees the world not only according to his own 'stuck' ideas but also from this worsening vantage point of eyes sinking lower and lower in a rut!
Getting free is not a matter of deciding which habit has to go, as one of these habits (the onerous, dumb job,) was chosen because they pay the rent. It is not a decision of deciding which habit is correct as none of them really are, evident from the rut they caused down through the middle of your life. And in that rut, a vacant space. No charismatic career that puts food on many tables.
The getting out of the rut is achieved by a.) lifting off the wheel, and b.) studying all our prior decisions, choices, our life habits, and our opinions, even those arising in our own brain, the stuff that we choose to see as amusing and valuable when it's neither. Once we SEE the truth about these life de-enhancing habits, routines, people, outlets and habits, and stop doing them ---- the cork pops back up on the surface of the water. Change will be attracted automatically. Seeing is above all, then the commitment to doing.
The important thing is to see the truth, tell the truth, about ourselves and about others. Tell it to ourselves and tell it to others. In a kind way of course.
We may feel that keeping the peace, keeping the silence, co-operating, working to keep everyone in the same stuck mode, doing that endless wage earning, servicing and enabling is the solid, safe American way. That to eat, sleep and die is all there is ---so paint a smile on your face and do it with resignation!
If that's what we believe, then, we're MORIBUND, headed straight toward the hospital, then the graveyard and we are taking our dear ones with us!
Very few of us make a personal life statement of any JOY or creative energy but ALL of us COULD (and be a model of it) if we could learn to tell the truth to ourselves and others, sweetly and gently, non-ostreperously, non-invasively, so that our own ears would hear it, learn from it and welcome hearing it again.
The trick is to learn to use the words that promise 'release' to the suffering monsters around us and to also say these words to ourselves. Say "you could be the most loved person if you'd stop griping," A truth about their bad habits delivered sweetly and hopefully sandwiched in good things. Say it to yourself at times, too!
Don't say to yourself, 'you're a fright, negative, cranky, complaining. I hate you. " No, promise freedom and excellence to yourself by speaking the truth sweetly. Affirming the fine things you can do to get away from that. Learn to identify the stuckness of all beings, their automatic mind, and help others to see it where they're stuck in nasty habits by promising they will find the path out.
To do it, you have to practice on yourself. DO NOT be afraid to see the truth about yourself. Don't be spooked by it and rush to judge yourself harshly. The truth isn't permanent. It's more like getting AN 'F' at half semester. A chance to see where your work or life is slipping! That will automatically prod you to do the second semester better and at least, get a B!
You see some areas, I'm sure, where you get an F! Where you're slightly stuck right now. Where your eye is sinking beneath the rut level. Very few of us can get just grab a skyhook and go flying out of that rut and get unstuck.
The doing so might mean we'd embrace friends who are probably nasty betrayers or abandon the family that has us clutched, send the clients packing, abandon the traffic, the city and job that has CLUTCHED US in its iron grip --- maybe to go live like maharajas in a third world land where a dollar can pay rent on a hut for a week. Where ten dollars can pay rent on a palace and l00$ a month can buy a staff of servants, an orchard of fruit trees full of nightingales and peacocks where we roam gardens with a gorgeous, exotic sweetheart.
But would you move to Mexico or Thailand where you could have an ecstatic life even if you knew you were certain to have it? No! We're afraid of untrod paths, success, luck, love. We're stuck, attached, FEARFUL. We tell ourselves we're saints feeding pets, taking care of mates, children, paying off property. So in effect, we have created an EITHER OR mobius loop that we can't get off. I can't leave the real so I can't have the dream. That is a sure formula for failure. I can't cure the monster near me so I have to suffer the monster. I can't stop my inner anger so I have to live with it.
RESIGNATION is the gate slamming in our face but that gate is not real; it is only inside of our eyelids, IN US.
THE SOUL and its dreams are pure light and have infinite possibilities. The excitement and energy of soul dreams could lead us to earning enough to pay for upkeep of the dull reality, by someone else, while we run off after the dream, living a miraculous life.
The soul and its dreams are ingenious enough in their mode of BEINGNESS which attracts HAVINGNESS to attract green energy.
We can combine the real with fantasy. We can become an import export tycoon, traveling to Thailand, Mexico Paris and Morocco and paying rent back in Dullsville Idaho. We were designed to be bi-coastal.
But no, the SOUL is stuck with this heavy HEAD, this MIND, this brain, this memory of what it THINKS we are, from what we've done and where we've been for the last few decades. The brain is the ultimate nay-sayer of the planet. The blocade before our feet is illusion. It is not really there. ANY two cent dream could finds its way around that blocade for that blocade is inside our own skull. Electrical blips of memory, nothing more. Why don't we choose a dream that would map a few easy steps forward, around it? RESIGNATION.
Physicians know that 99% of the physical diseases are caused by the mind. The "unconscious" mind (called in Sanskrit language "nirbhuddi") stores 25 mental picture images per second with ALL the details and subtle nuances of color, temperature, point of dimension, space, sounds, tactile textures, even your emotions ---- full on, what you FELT.....at any exact moment etc. IT IS STORED.
And why limit sense impressions and dreams to backwards in time? They can, we know, be stretched, (rubber reality) to envision a future, the envisioned future that must be mapped to then exist ... perhaps with the help of angels.
I believe that some kind of thought patrol Angels are waiting, pencils poised, for us to dream! I know I used to dream of getting a specific client, here in L.A. A novelist. I think about it at times. Suddenly, a FRIEND brought this novelist to my house! BIZARRE! She later became a lifelong friend and client! Her name, her face and her wonderful books were in my envisioning for a few months before it happened! Go figure that one.
So what does that tell us. Spend time envisioning! I once saw a sign on the outside of a church. "Dream something so audacious that it's guaranteed to fail if God doesn't step in." And then wait patiently and in good humor, until God steps in. And oh yes, make efforts. Do the ground work.
Once I was regressed (non hypnotically, while awake) to a past life and with the help of the tekkie doing it, I HAD EMOTIONAL RECALL in technicolor and cinerama that I don't even have for events in this lifetime! The reason may be that the INHIBITING MIND that existed IN that lifetime, had long GONE. Those memories were unfettered!
When "remembering" attempts are done for THIS lifetime, these remembrances are not strong, as we are in active denial. 'Cathected', Freud called it. Strong blockages, strong 'non-confronts' exist. Little road signs 'do not go there.'
So if we try to remember a powerful event of recent years, our inner eye is blocked! The BODY feels endangered, when it senses that memory or thought coming so it "BLOCKS" the powerful, inner eye, THE DREAMING eye that we're trying to use while awake. Sleep sometimes loosens the memory, and boy do the emotions pour out on us when the ole brain is asleep!
So you see, some important, needed messages never make it PAST our own brain. We are being held incommunicado in our own body. Brains hate outpourings of feelings. So they can block them. By blocking the FOCUS that would evoke feelings. People who are blocked become jumpity thought, unfocused, non sequiteurs show up in their speech. They are at effect of a MIND constrained NOT TO THINK OF HIPPOPOTAMUS!
My past life regression told me hugely important things about my compulsive tendencies. My soul life. My 'how I am from lifetime to lifetime'. In normal waking consciousness, I HADN'T A CLUE about this compulsion. It wasn't such a bad thing, but it had never dawned on me. I hadn't a clue. MY LIFE was running away from me like a waterfall. It would have been quite useful to see that compulsion but I hadn't the altitude to see it! (Don't die of suspense. My problem is I'm a compulsive mother. A baby machine. I like to kiss cheeks of babies so I have to keep creating them.)
Normally, we block any suspicion of our having a compulsion or a loony bent, right out. For instance, I say "Visit Paradise. Travel to THAILAND" to you, and you react with UGH, startled fear. Some message you heard about revolution there. Dirty water. Bugs.
These fears, these sentences you heard somewhere on the road of life.....are THERE, lingering in your MIND, making all motion impossible, all freedom to travel, savor life, meet strange, exotic people....unlikely.
We don't know that blockages are inside us. There's simply a desire not to know or confront things that we experienced that were noxious, in the past. A story about a bug, a spider, a tarantula, a parasite in water in a third world country lingers in memory along with a recalled decision to never go to one. So we live in our rut with fear.
(A reason not to talk to your kids about such things, or show them t.v. shows with sharks and spiders.) Because this is likely to occur: I might say 'Go live in Paradise, Bali, Thailand and export art' and you would instantly think 'oh the water there would kill me." That's an automatic reaction. We have all kinds of those. Some people hear a DOG BARK, they leap up in fear and pain as if they were bitten, --- what that is, their NERVOUS system is remembering a bite as a child, nothing more.
I can't tell you how many people have come to my living room for readings, seen my CATS, sweet little fat furry critters and reacted in total fear. They won't come in the door! Because of a childhood experience with a cat.
So --- memories are persuasive, potent, illusory and have us in a jail. Our distaste for the truth about ourselves, our compulsions is another kind of jail.
There's a t.v. ad now, where a family has built a house out of stone as they hate termites. That's a good metaphor. The urge to get the nasty out has given us a sterile, untenable existence.
If we had a tool to confront 'stuck views' and observe them and ourselves and our own compulsions with 'ease', we would not only lose the fear of many things that hold us in a strait jacket, but we could loosen up our dreams, enter states of being other things long enough to attain those other paths, as that is the rule. We magnetize to attract. We could achieve happiness, relief and personal realization of increasing pleasure. We would easily be able to steer ourselves away from rigid, automatic or compulsive behavior when it came up. Recognize how frustration with ourselves is like a frozen sea. And being stuck in this Arctic frozen wilderness naturally makes us nasty.
All that would put us more in a mood to be CAUSE over the universe in which we live, observor of the causes of our nastier tendencies masters of our environment, achiever of our desires. Such knowledge would gives us control over beliefs which are not ours but which have been subtly installed or implanted by tweaked people, random events or deliberately engraved as negative programming by others in this life and in past lives which we have "forgotten". Once we can access that programming, through focused memory on this life, past life regression, and Akashic record memories, we can devise a way out of the icebergs. Break up the ice and sail right out of it.
CLEANSED of these stuck paranoias, DOORS would open in our current life. We would flow into an ecstatic life, inside of a warm, protected forward flow. The immense magical universe has sent an ocean of crystalline beauty to you, and you won't get in the water!
When GOD ABOVE has an inspiration and moves men, people, events, synchronicity, events, offers, inspirations to us and we react with fear and say "NO!" automatically -- because of the specter of 'oh that isn't me. I'm this, not that." Snobishness, distaste or fear, we stand in the way of the Evolution of the universe and don't even know that we're doing it.
We hear an offer from a good soul "let's go, let's do" and we think, "No way! I'm prudent. I chose NOT to get involved, because this person is probably flaky. Others have betrayed me. This event seems flakey, dangerous."
We move with our Republican MINDS, highly conditional, limited relationships and with minds that are storage dumps for old trash, heavy, cumbersome, -- unmoving really.
We don't move with Democratic hearts which absolutely see the God in the other person and are endlessly enjoying them, trusting, adventurous, zestful, admiring, explorational and fearless. That kind of heart wants to see everyone get enough and that's the only pay off. NO, we can't get to that altitude of living because we are too full of memories of past betrayals!
I am reminded of a saying of Mark Twain's. "A cat that leaps up on a hot stove will never jump on a hot stove again. The problem is, he will never leap up on a COLD one either." So he misses a lot of meals is the implication.
How can we understand our minds and the jail they keep us in, a jail of expectation of "EEK! THE HOT STOVE AGAIN!"
How can we really judge what is outside us, when we can barely realize that which goes on within our mind?. At the present moment. we are more EFFECT than CAUSE. As scarred people, we are fond of assigning blame and responsibility on other people or external things, 'fate', bad luck, blaming parents, judging mates, sitting in judgement of groups, fearing them, and even reacting with horrific jealousy and loathing. Blame, anger, paranoia, hate. Our daily diet.
If you've ever tried to correct bad behavior, indicate to a powerful egomaniac who's in a 'hate snit' that they're psycho, they will bite your arm off. If I as a counselor even try to say to a foaming mad client, 'dear heart, this jealousy and hatred is beneath you,' they scream. I had to hang up on a client screaming a string of F.U's at me, last week, and for a lot less than saying 'this hatred is beneath you.'
We let ourselves be filled with toxic emotions. On such a diet, we lose our powers to dream, become more and more at EFFECT. We no longer create. We are just reacting to what the environment, other people and our prejudices impose on us or trigger in us. Satan's all too glad to have you do it, too.
There are toxic beliefs and habits embedded in the automatic mind which we have accepted without even being aware of how automatic, alienating and toxic those beliefs are. They aren't spectacular, hairy, purple people eater thoughts. They are not 'ALIEN' bulging up in our stomach. No, they are quiet, unassuming, banal, ordinary prejudices about how good we are and how mighty and fine and pure, but they are toxic as arsenic.
We live in a world of hating certain qualities we see in others. Everyone out there is an outsider. We're the only insider. Right? Very important you identify what that thing is you hate so much and examine it as you would a tumor removed from your heart. What built this? Ask that question. Where did such selfness come from, in me? What made me develop this ego?
Usually it's a defense against another, lower layer also in us, just as toxic. It's guilt at our 'badness.' That one provokes anger at the badness of others. You don't see that both are spectres of the mind that has forgotten to dream and was busy building defenses against wrath. Wherever dreaming isn't, the toxic tumor of wrath IS.
The tumor grows weightier, if we don't work at getting it out. WEAKENED by this inner tumor sapping our strength, feeding itself on our bloodstream, THE DEMONS of habitual materialism, pride, wrath, jealousy, competitiveness, can take over.
Your rut, your mind, your fatigue, your mate, your job, your boss enslaves you. And then what happens is that the Macrocosm enslaves us, our political leaders can enslave us, dragging us into bankruptcy, wars, pollution. This mechanism is 'as if' one were being tied up by an enemy that one can not see, allowing other forces to get more toxic too and press in and really destroy the planet.
Without a technique to get above the mind, and see the tumor within and work on it, one can not defend oneself from the tumor without. ONE DOES NOT EVEN KNOW that one is tied up by an enemy inside, worse than the smog, oil lobby presidents bent on war with Arabs to get their oil, on the outside.
The habits of your mind are the enemy that has stolen from you the possibility of a swim in warm waters on far shores, third world countries for fear of dirty water, spiders, sharks, or falling in love with those friends you see every day, for fear of being out competed, or being hustled by take advantage pals and lovers. So we retreat to our hole, tied up BY TEDIUM. BY EMPTINESS. BY HABIT.
The thing we have to do is get so mad at our airless lives that we can say the magic words: "Give me rape by a Turk rather than this tedium!"
Well, that's overkill. Dualistic mind is giving us the loony impression it's an either/or situation. A DREAMING LIFE artfully lived and loving friends is not tempting the fates to give us rape at the hands of a Turk fer gawdsake!
We have such fear (of baby steps) stuck in us. Clinging to the mother's breast is a habit that dies hard. Being able to scan the memory of childhood, both this one and that of lives past, with the powerful lens of looking backwards, which you can learn to do from a five page file, free to you at this web site, we can look see and invite change. You want to know how simple it is? Inviting it causes it.
The technique of early life regression and past life regression can be learned in a single reading of a file. No guru required, no class. No dictionary. You can begin to do "Samskara" cleaning (that is the term used in INDIA to describe the impressions stored in our inner mind.) That's the last sanskrit word I'll use. Stick to English.
There is NO LIMIT to the extent of experiences that you could remember -- by yourself --- but the amount you could remember with a buddy system is doubly infinite! But we hate buddies, don't we. Invasive buggers. Takers all. Take all your time, won't they. Come in the living room, eat your food, copy your decor. Want to borrow books.
Achieve a solution for your stuckness, create close friends who are your students even if it means having to lend your books! Solve these life quandaries by inculcating the teacher's heart. Achieve clear memories of past lives in group work on your living room floor. It's actually more like play. And when you see those past lives, you'll recognize the events that programmed you to be as you ARE! And maybe see that your deepest tendencies are AUTOMATIC 'reactions,' not logical and next time you get tempted to react that way automatically, you can catch yourself before you tell a friend 'you liar, you user.' Before you even thought it. And oh, you do think it.
For example: you would be amazed if you would know the suspicious things you have listened to while you were in the womb of your mother, if you would learn that her emotions, problems, sensations, thoughts and OPINIONS, true or not -- are stored in your brain. You did not need to understand the ENGLISH language as a fetus to get the 'supra thought'. The strange OPINIONS that MOM HAD during her pregnancy may also be controlling you TODAY. Can you imagine a puppet moved by invisible strings? Walking a life dictated by Mom's take on it? YOUR MOM, right?
Emotional release work, past life regression, neo-natal and pre-natal rebirthing can disclose stuck opinions, events, words, programming in you. While Mom's alive you should regress her, and find out what she was going through during the nine months she was making YOU! That'd be a fertile field to plow!
CLEARING the stuck junk hastens the connection with a lot of higher things. Maybe guardian angels who'd give you stuff. OR Maybe soul impulses within, big strong JESUS like ones, to do great and audacious works. Live a life less ordinary.
So it's this simple. Using the presence and help of disincarnate angelic entities will open Akashic records so that you can 'enter' those events like walking into a movie.
A famed shrink, Janov, used a simple version of it for his BH clients, Lennon, Yoko, Dyan Cannon. After I read palms at her Malibu party, Dyan taught me a starter kit on the Janov system. I went on to find the school. If you want to try this therapy system at home, read a file on it. Get a friend in your city to read same file and try doing it, (it's real easy) with a buddy system. IT IS CALLED EMOTIONAL RELEASE WORK. First for 'this lifetime' memories, then go back into past lives. Read THE SEARCH FOR BRIDEY MURPHY by Bernstein and THERE IS A RIVER both avail at http://www.abebooks.com for a few dollars, and get Janov's books, Primal Scream and his others. And read FRITZ PERLS, Frederick Perls, on GESTALT.
I can and will email you a several free files on all this, (like a mini pamphlet or article) that will help you do do this kind of remembering, habit seeking, karma cleaning. Emotional release work. Rebirthing. Visiting, entering PAST LIVES, Neo-natal memories in this life. PRE-NATAL memories. The whole nine yards!
As it's priceless, guess what? It's free!
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