Dear Diary,
Now that I had finally admitted my feelings for AJ to him and
myself, I wondered how things were going to progress. Especially since he was
still in Italy and I didn't know when he was going to come back. I was a bit reluctant to try any sort of
long-distance relationship. Of course,
Italy isn't as far away as Australia…
About a week later, after more
calls AJ told me that he was going to be coming back home soon. Francesca's fashion show had gone
wonderfully so he was going to spend a few more days with her before leaving. He said that he would actually get to spend
more time with her now that she was less stressed out.
I didn't want to ask him exactly
when he was coming back because I didn't want to sound too needy. I noticed that he didn't say either, and I
couldn't help but think that he was thinking something along the same
lines. While I was very happy that AJ
was coming back, I did have some concerns.
I was wondering which direction our new relationship was going to
take. We hadn't actually talked about
the future very much on our calls, we just learned more about each other. I had always respected the Admiral and I
have recently learned to respect him even more. I also think that I am falling more and more in love with
him.
I think that my concerns were
valid, starting a new relationship can always be worrisome. I think that the fact that I have known AJ
for so long as my CO will definitely make things a bit difficult for us. Getting past that would be tough but I also
know that we can work it out. I just
hoped that we could see each other privately first. I didn't really want everyone to know about us at first.
My other concern, though seemingly
unimportant, was something that I knew would have an effect on me for
years. I knew that this would never be
forgotten. Of course, I didn't mean to
do it, but it just sort of happened. I
had killed the Admiral's plants. Every
damn one of them was dead. I guess that
it could have been worse though, I could have killed Harm's plants. By some cosmic fluke, all of his plants were
still alive.
I had warned AJ that this could
happen so I was hoping that he wouldn't mind so much but I was praying that AJ
wouldn't tell Harm about it. If I was
lucky, I would be able to pick up some new plants and AJ wouldn't know until I
told him, if I told him. The day after
his phone call I went back to his place and after hunting down a phone book I
called a local nursery. I was pleased
to find that they were just a few miles down the road. I hopped into my car and drove over there
after locking up the house.
I soon found myself surrounded by
lots of flowers and plants. I wandered
around looking for plants similar to those that I had killed. I didn't find any of the plants but I did
find an employee. She introduced
herself as Lisa and when I explained to them what happened, the young girl
struggled to hide her smile. I felt
terrible. Here was this young thing and
she probably never killed a plant in her life and I had just killed many.
Lisa was a big help but even with
all the plants here they did not have replacement plants in stock. She assured me that they were getting in new
plants in tomorrow and she will pull out the ones that I need. I told her that I would probably have to
pick them up the day after tomorrow because I had plans tomorrow. She said that was not going to be a problem
at all. Things were finally falling
into place.